[screened] I don't know. After last Sunday... when you came over. I was really sad because I love you Ryo. You're my favourite person. Senpai, he comes first because I don't even know why, but you're the easiest person to love and I love you a lot. It's not just the sex... so I know there's more you can do than just have sex. I still love you... even if it's hard knowing I can't sleep with you anymore. And now I'm feeling... you're better than me, Ryo. You can do this, you're done it before... and you don't drink either, you've done that too. I'm weak. The guy I want to be with his all over me just waiting for me to stop being a slut but I can't... and it's not lack of love, it's just that I'm really weak... and you aren't.
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timeasmymeasure
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Date: 2015-11-04 02:06 pm (UTC)[screened]
I don't know. After last Sunday... when you came over. I was really sad because I love you Ryo. You're my favourite person. Senpai, he comes first because I don't even know why, but you're the easiest person to love and I love you a lot. It's not just the sex... so I know there's more you can do than just have sex. I still love you... even if it's hard knowing I can't sleep with you anymore. And now I'm feeling... you're better than me, Ryo. You can do this, you're done it before... and you don't drink either, you've done that too. I'm weak. The guy I want to be with his all over me just waiting for me to stop being a slut but I can't... and it's not lack of love, it's just that I'm really weak... and you aren't.