Echizen Ryoma

[Entry written in English]

Fucking I don't even know what to do with myself. 
Talked to mom and Mike. They were super supportive but it was kind of painful in a way. Why did I come back to Japan? Oh right it was to fucking see all the people I missed...all the people I thought were friends. I guess I was delusional. I guess it hasn't been a total waste...got to see him again and I guess make things kind of right again...but then again I got my heart broken a second time. Why do I bother? This shit isn't worth it....this pain...nothing is worth this....

I miss Seigaku. Seigaku was great. That's the Japan I wanted to come back to.....
i guess I really was an idiot....

Maybe I should move back to the states....

(ooc: He wrote it in English because he doesnt' remember how to make an entry private. Soooo <.< he did the next best thing. Put it in a language very few will understand. ) 

 Lost yesterday, but watching Atobe play Yukimura tomorrow is so worth it. This is gonna be fuckin' great! 

Kick ass Atobe-san! 

 I can't stop laughing. I have to take an English exam next week? Seriously? I'm technically an exchange student...from America.......

Whatever. This should be hilarious. Wonder if I get extra points for correcting the teacher's spelling...hmmm....

At least I don't have to take Japanese. Tested out of that shit in the entrance exam interview. Fuck that crap. 

 Heh. 

At least there wasn't a 4 day tie break or something. 

Gotta play Yukimura again, huh? Should be fun. 

Feel like junior high just punched me in the face though. 

Atobe, buy me a ponta. I promise I won't try to shave your head this time! Ok maybe just a little....

 I'm like suddenly starving but everything is closed. Fuccccckkkkkkk. Fine ok, guess I'll go drive somewhere that's open.


Unless someone wants to make me food? <3 

 Hey, Tezuka-buchou, I found ya something.
Don't know who made it, but ~ 

 Well, ok, so fuckin' I know this is late, but I don't even care. I've been asleep on my feet since the 26th of December basically. 

I got some amazing presents though and I'm so fuckin' happy with how my birthday and christmas went. 

New years was well....boring as usual. Watched kouhaku though. What a weird ass show that is. It was pretty fun though. I wanna be invited someday not as a singer of course, but as a guest would be cool. Called my Mom and Mike though. Was kinda nice to talk to 'em. 

Training in this cold is a bitch though. I'm pretty sure I almost dislocated my thumb the other day. Ugh. Anyway, it's fuckin' cold. I'm going to stay in bed and like never leave. Satoshi, babe, you gonna come keep me warm? 

 It's already December. 

My birthday is coming up then Christmas then it'll be New Years....Shit. Things are going too fast. 

It's been a long time since I've gotten to enjoy a Japanese New Years though. I'm pretty excited about that. And next year is a leap year too. Fuji-senpai will finally get another birthday! You'll be what, 5? >]

Christmas is so different here though...Not nearly as much fun. Oh, the sales will be nice though...hmm...

Nee, Satoshi. Let's go shopping together and spend Christmas day together. Christmas Eve too, of course~ It's my birthday and that's what I want so you have to, ok? No escape. 

Yesterday really was a great thanksgiving. 

Called mom and my step-dad and then went out to talk to someone. 

I'm so fuckin' thankful I did. 

I'm thankful for a lot really. I'm a really lucky guy. 

( Screened to Kise )

 Hey, Satoshi. Thanks.