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[fck_yeah_tennis]

[Entry written in English]

Fucking I don't even know what to do with myself. 
Talked to mom and Mike. They were super supportive but it was kind of painful in a way. Why did I come back to Japan? Oh right it was to fucking see all the people I missed...all the people I thought were friends. I guess I was delusional. I guess it hasn't been a total waste...got to see him again and I guess make things kind of right again...but then again I got my heart broken a second time. Why do I bother? This shit isn't worth it....this pain...nothing is worth this....

I miss Seigaku. Seigaku was great. That's the Japan I wanted to come back to.....
i guess I really was an idiot....

Maybe I should move back to the states....

(ooc: He wrote it in English because he doesnt' remember how to make an entry private. Soooo <.< he did the next best thing. Put it in a language very few will understand. ) 

Comments

[momoiroheart]

Ryoma-kun I'm here for you if you ever need anything. In fact I'm here whether you like it or not. I'll be right outside your door soon with someone else who would love to see you though perhaps for more selfish reasons like wanting a pet or belly rub~

[ooc: Also in English~]

[fck_yeah_tennis]

E-Eh? Seriously?

[momoiroheart]

Quite serious. You'll hear the pitterpatter of her curious paws soon and then the yipping that will break your heart if you don't open up~

[fck_yeah_tennis]

Guess I got no choice but to open up then, huh?

[momoiroheart]

Either that or torture yourself. The choice is yours, Ryoma-kun~ But the sooner you open the sooner you'll get the best kind of kiss there is.

[at0be]

Things change Echizen.

[fck_yeah_tennis]

It fucking sucks.

Nothing ever changes for the better.

[at0be]

That's a terribly pessimistic way to look at it. Different doesn't have to be worse

[fck_yeah_tennis]

Yeah well so far that's all it's ever been. I sincerely doubt it's going to change and magically get better anytime soon.

[at0be]

Well this kind of statement isn't going to make it more likely

[free_rin]

Hey...uh...you ok?


(ooc: also written in English)

[fck_yeah_tennis]

Not really.

[free_rin]

...want to talk about it?

[fck_yeah_tennis]

Actually....yeah...kinda?

That ok? It's gonna be boring and whiny as fuck.

[free_rin]

If you're all right with me, sure I guess.

[fck_yeah_tennis]

Sure, why not?

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[nantokacchi]

Running away, from american to japan, japan to america, it won't change Ryo. Junior high was a long time go, you can't just come back and expect everything to be the same and people to be the same. It's not true that it changes for the worse... i saw your message to Atobe.

I'm worried about you, talk to me.

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

It only changes for the worse for me. It never gets better.

Don't worry about me. It's fine. You got a boyfriend now, you should be worrying about him instead of my worthless outside of tennis self.

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[nantokacchi]

Even if you tell me that, I can't not worry, I just do. Besides, I can worry about the both of you. Let's go for dinner this week, you need to be with your friends now.

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

Friend.

I've only got the one, really. No pressure or anything.

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[nantokacchi]

It's no pressure, Ryo. Lets have dinner and my shoulder is yours, okay?

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

Yeah, alright.