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[fck_yeah_tennis]

[Entry written in English]

Fucking I don't even know what to do with myself. 
Talked to mom and Mike. They were super supportive but it was kind of painful in a way. Why did I come back to Japan? Oh right it was to fucking see all the people I missed...all the people I thought were friends. I guess I was delusional. I guess it hasn't been a total waste...got to see him again and I guess make things kind of right again...but then again I got my heart broken a second time. Why do I bother? This shit isn't worth it....this pain...nothing is worth this....

I miss Seigaku. Seigaku was great. That's the Japan I wanted to come back to.....
i guess I really was an idiot....

Maybe I should move back to the states....

(ooc: He wrote it in English because he doesnt' remember how to make an entry private. Soooo <.< he did the next best thing. Put it in a language very few will understand. ) 

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[nantokacchi]

Running away, from american to japan, japan to america, it won't change Ryo. Junior high was a long time go, you can't just come back and expect everything to be the same and people to be the same. It's not true that it changes for the worse... i saw your message to Atobe.

I'm worried about you, talk to me.

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

It only changes for the worse for me. It never gets better.

Don't worry about me. It's fine. You got a boyfriend now, you should be worrying about him instead of my worthless outside of tennis self.

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[nantokacchi]

Even if you tell me that, I can't not worry, I just do. Besides, I can worry about the both of you. Let's go for dinner this week, you need to be with your friends now.

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

Friend.

I've only got the one, really. No pressure or anything.

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[nantokacchi]

It's no pressure, Ryo. Lets have dinner and my shoulder is yours, okay?

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[fck_yeah_tennis]

Yeah, alright.