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fck_yeah_tennis) wrote2016-04-30 10:28 pm
fck_yeah_tennis) wrote2016-04-30 10:28 pm
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[Entry written in English]
Fucking I don't even know what to do with myself.
Talked to mom and Mike. They were super supportive but it was kind of painful in a way. Why did I come back to Japan? Oh right it was to fucking see all the people I missed...all the people I thought were friends. I guess I was delusional. I guess it hasn't been a total waste...got to see him again and I guess make things kind of right again...but then again I got my heart broken a second time. Why do I bother? This shit isn't worth it....this pain...nothing is worth this....
I miss Seigaku. Seigaku was great. That's the Japan I wanted to come back to.....
i guess I really was an idiot....
Maybe I should move back to the states....
(ooc: He wrote it in English because he doesnt' remember how to make an entry private. Soooo <.< he did the next best thing. Put it in a language very few will understand. )
Fucking I don't even know what to do with myself.
Talked to mom and Mike. They were super supportive but it was kind of painful in a way. Why did I come back to Japan? Oh right it was to fucking see all the people I missed...all the people I thought were friends. I guess I was delusional. I guess it hasn't been a total waste...got to see him again and I guess make things kind of right again...but then again I got my heart broken a second time. Why do I bother? This shit isn't worth it....this pain...nothing is worth this....
I miss Seigaku. Seigaku was great. That's the Japan I wanted to come back to.....
i guess I really was an idiot....
Maybe I should move back to the states....
(ooc: He wrote it in English because he doesnt' remember how to make an entry private. Soooo <.< he did the next best thing. Put it in a language very few will understand. )